I’m in love with my best friend. She is my dream girl, perfect in every way. We were sort of together for a while but there was some betrayal and I haven’t fully forgiven her for it. I know that I should be with her but life keeps us apart. She is sort of casually seeing this guy, which she semi hides from me, and it is tearing me up inside. I love her. I crave her. I want her. But I can’t have her. The b******* if it’s meant to be it’s meant to be is rhetoric people say when they lose. I have lost.
Emotionally she holds on to me she cries to me and i make things better but he gets all of the affection. I actually think I annoy her more now than anything, she won’t say it. I just feel sad. I need to let go but can’t.
I have no one else to tell so I’ll say it here. My heart is broken. She broke it before and she breaks it a little more everyday.
I just feel sad.
I know that my current relationship is suffering because of my broken heart.
Sometimes life just s****.