I’m going on a job interview tomorrow and I feel sick to my stomach. I know even if I get the job the happiness wont last because I will most likely not like my coworkers. I never do. Dream coworkers are coworkers who do not speak unless it is to ask for something or instruct. That is all. I truly hate human beings. I hate socialization. I hate chatter, chatting, and talking. I hate this get out there, sell yourself, socialize, humans are social creatures culture. I truly F****** hate it. I hate when people imply you’re a loser for not wanting it. I dont want it. I am happy alone. I’m happy when nobody is talking to me. I do not mind it through the internet in text since I can control the flow of the conversation and when I want to end it its a simple as not touching the keyboard. Try suddenly not talking irl. It’s rude. Then people will get on you for it. I hate that I am expected to wear a fake plastic smile, say hi to everyone, mingle, and interact. I am just so completely miserable because I am forced against my will to interact with people otherwise I will be considered rude, potentially lose my job, or draw even more attention to myself.

Cant I just be a silent freak and everybody smile, nod, and accept it and just f*** off and let me? I am so mad I want to stomp, kick, scream, and throw a tantrum.

F*** people and f*** this extroverted culture.