I hate my wife, despise her. I’m having an affair with a much younger and so much more beautiful woman. She has a bf, but as she says he’s a loser with no ambition. She says me being almost 10 Years older doesn’t matter. She’s a wild freaky one in bed. Let’s me tie her up, she’s tied me up, no condoms, all dirty freak s**, a*** is expected from her. Why do I not feel guilty