WARNING: Sappy breakup story coming up
A few months ago I was dating someone in my grade. We were in 8th grade at the time and we dated for about 4 months. He was perfect for me and it was the happiest I ever remember being. He was the first person I showed my b**** to and I’m the first he showed his p**** to. We also made out all the time which I never did before. I even stayed the night with him at his aunts house, but we didn’t do anything. Our relationship got to the point where it was normal for him to touch my b**** and it was weird when he didn’t. I loved him and he loved me, but he started being close friends with a girl that lives closer to him than I do. He talked about her to me often and it made me mad, but at the same time if he was doing stuff with her, he wouldn’t talk about her to me. This went on for a couple weeks and I just kept getting mad at him.
A few days before school ended, he was acting strange and only kissed me a couple times that day. I asked him what was wrong and he just said he wasn’t feeling good and he didn’t want to get me sick. At the end of the day we were walking with each other getting ready to go out to the buses. He just stood there and grabbed my hand and put it on his heart. It was racing and I was about to break down right there. I asked him what was wrong and he said “Something that will make you cry.”
Everthing was racing through my mind and all I could think was that he cheated on me with that girl. I wasnt prepared for what he said next, and it didnt even cross my mind that he was going to say it. He proceeded to hug me and try to keep me calm and not freak out then he said “I don’t have the same feelings for you anymore.”
My life was ruined. I trusted him with my heart and he did this to me. I didn’t want to hear the words come out of his mouth but he said it. “I’m sorry, but we’re done.” He was hugging me and trying to make me feel better, but I just wanted to leave. I almost ran to the bus and cried in front of people for the first time. I cried the whole way home then cried even harder when I got home. I texted him and said we needed to talk a few hours later, so he called me. I cried most of the time on the phone and didn’t even get to say what I wanted to say because he needed to help his parents with something, but he make me feel a little better and he even cried with me a little. He said he would love if we stayed friends and that it was my decision, but we all know that no one stays friends when you break up.
It was all so surreal. I never thought that would happen and he never even gave any warning. Here I am on our 9 month anniversary almost 5 months after we broke up and he’s still on my mind. It’s like he’ll never leave, like he’s stuck in there forever. We did everything with each other and now we never talk. This getting over him thing wouldn’t be so bad if I didn’t see him almost everyday after school because of band, and anyone who is in marching band knows it takes over your life. I just need him. I don’t even need to be with him, I just need him in my life. What am I going to do with myself?