Have you already forgotten about me? Are you with another girl? Was I replaceable at the end of the day? I wonder if you still think about me.
If you think about me in the same fashion I think about you, once in a blue moon and filled with curiosity… I wonder what has been of your life… Are you still alive? How’s your mother? She never met me, but I liked her from all you had told me about her.
I wonder if, like me, you think about me when I’m alone and nobody else is there to keep me entertained.
If, like me, you wonder whether the time we spent together was useful and precious or just a waste.
If, like me, you have changed since 2014.
If it was true what you told me. Was I your first love? Because you certainly were mine. I probably won’t ever be able to forget a about you.
I regret being such a d*** to you.
I wonder if I ever met you again anywhere and never realised. Be it on an online game, on the street, on social media…
Do I miss you or do I miss that time of my life? I don’t know.
I’m still growing up and learning. I wonder if your doing the same thing.
My first year of university was this past year. Yours was the one in which we broke up… Have you graduated already? Have you changed your major? Have you changed your mind?
Do you remember me as the girl you spent some of the best moments of your life or the girl who was so selfish she couldn’t see past her needs?
Is my selective memory making me forget about the s***** stuff about you? Probably… But I do remember you as my first and only love. As the tender guy you were. As the one who complimented my then s***** personality, my then crappy music taste, and my then ignorant self.
Can you believe it? I did not spend a single night with another person since 2014… Since you. Not because of you, but because of me.
I think I’m stupid for it… But I won’t make the same mistakes I did with you. Not again.
Are you thankful for the experience we had? Because I am. I am thankful for the experience.
“And when your fantasies
Become your legacy
Promise me a place
In your house of memories.”
