I was with my boyfriend yesterday and I knew he was still a bit drunk. We were at school talking during my spare when he asks me to go for a walk with him. He leads me to a very isolated stair way. Oddly, two of my friends were there…. He picks me up and he kisses me. No big deal. Until he started to force me to make out with him when he sat me on his lap with my legs wrapped around him. I don’t know why but making out makes me uncomfortable and I always shy away. He would keep asking me over and over to do it. Then he finally said those cliche words. “Do you still want to date me? If you really do then you’re going to have to learn soon” I hesitantly agreed but after a few failed attempts I stand up and he asks me if he can grab me from behind. He slides one hand up my shirt and then asks me if he can put his hand down there. I told him “If he wants to”. I shouldn’t have said that…. I regret it. He wasn’t listening to when I told him no before. He kept telling me “I thought you were okay with anything” I then told him “I know, but now I regret it” He had his arms wrapped around me still when he stepped back and was again sitting on his lap while he continued to touch me. After a small discussion about having s** (I did refuse) I kept telling him no to whatever he was talking about he asked me to sit beside him and for me to lay my head on his chest. Every time he talked to me he kept asking for me to look in his eyes. I ended up crying a bit there while he told me he wouldn’t do anything to hurt/abuse me and he wouldn’t leave me because he is scared of losing me. I shyly reply “Okay” After awhile of that repeating while he told me it was okay that I cry We finally decide to hug and leave hand in hand. I only did that because he asked me to and all I want is to make him happy without requiring too much from me. We walk back to the cafeteria and he kept telling me that he wasn’t like every other guy, that I should trust him, and he wouldn’t hurt me… I walk up to my class after the whole incident with him. He wouldn’t stop asking for kisses before I left (I thought it was kind of cute but he was drunk) The next day comes around and the first thing he did was apologize to me about what happened yesterday. He said he couldn’t remember much but he did remember some of what “we” did. He said he felt so bad about it and he couldn’t stop worrying about it. I forgave him but I plan to talk about it a bit more tomorrow. I said it was alright and he didn’t have to worry a whole lot but the truth is that I’ve been thinking about it a lot and it has made me very uncomfortable.

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