I’m a quiet, somewhat socially awkward young woman,– and a virgin! — and I’ve had fantasies about f***** for years… I want to do softcore stuff, like handcuffs and ordering him to eat me out slowly, but I also want to beat a guy until he screams or peg him so hard and rough that he starts to cry. Also, impossible things, like have a man be completely at my mercy, my posession, that I could torture or kill but I don’t kill him because I CHOOSE not to. It’s about the s**, but it’s also not about that– whenever I’m upset, my natural response is to be angry, but then to lock myself in a room and quietly pace back and forth until the feeling goes away, just swallow the anger, and I always wish for someone who would look at me and kneel and say “I don’t know why you’re angry, but please, take it out on me.” I want someone sweet to come home to at the end of the day, someone who would kneel by my chair and let me run my fingers through his hair, someone that I could buy expensive gifts and watch him blush.