I masturbated and stuck my finger up my b******* and I made a s******* submissive facial expression and I used mind projection indicating to women where I work and otherwise that I’m a sissy boy who likes women to s******* me with strap-on dildos and that I was fantasizing about all the women where I work gathered around me sodomizing me with strap-on dildos and that I was m*********** to fantasies about that and I was selfish hipocrytical prideful arrogant lazy insensitive unloving unmerciful unforgiving irresponsible procrastinating ungodly lustful flirtatious immature irresponsible faithless decietful I felt pathetic goofy awkward feminine oversexed embarrassed gross disgusting that I lack confidence manliness masculinity self control and that I am too weak-willed and I had worldly sorrow resentment and I was afraid anxious worried paranoid and I passed judgement against others
