I wanna f*** my best friend so bad. He’s 100% straight and would never consider it. But we can talk for hours and never get bored of each other… we connect on so many different levels.
Last week, we got back from the bar. I walked up to him, looked him in the eyes, leaned close and kissed him on the lips. It was short, quick, nothing more. He didn’t flinch, didn’t pull away at all. Just let me do it. I wonder if he went to bed thinking about it or if he just thought it was a joke.
Another night, I blacked out and I woke up next to him on the floor. We were cuddling and I saw his pants throbbing a bit. I’m not a r*****/groper cause that’s messed up and i respect my friend. But I just watched it move around and felt him hold me, playing out fantasies in my head.
Living in the south doesn’t help with this kind of stuff either. Pretty deep-seated s***. His dad and older brothers would probably beat the s*** of me.
