I want to be fucked by a soldier, a sailor, a police officer or a security guard – basically a man in uniform. Maybe even a university professor. I’d like the s** to be rough and to be treated like a s***, even though everyone considers me a good girl.
My father is a powerful man, who used to work in high positions and had a very good salary, and I want an equally powerful and capable lover, with a high libido and stamina. Someone who will also take care of me and understand my fears and insecurities, but at the same time, someone who would like to provoke me and be provoked by me so we can engage in dirty flirting.
Ever since my ex-BF managed to put his d*** in me, I feel the urge to have s** again and again. I want a man to c** inside me; I think I deserve it. I don’t want my partner to use a condom. My gyno told me that a guy I sleep with should always put on a condom. What I plan is to get on the pill; I don’t need my man to use a condom unless he’s promiscuous. Gyno also told me I should avoid s** during menstruation, but I wouldn’t mind someone putting a d*** inside my p**** while I’m on my period.
I thought about getting an IUD inserted in my uterus, and gyno mentioned that without me telling her beforehand. Of course, she advised me not to do it since I haven’t given birth before. That’s okay by me, however what isn’t OK is that I think my mom might have told her something while I was in the bathroom at the clinic. Of course, she denies it. By the way, my mom told me I’m a s*** and forbid me to have s**, she told me I mustn’t do that or else I might get pregnant (birth control wasn’t widely available when she was a young woman).
It hurt me a lot and I cried, and now I fantasize of getting pregnant and even having an abortion. It’s scary but I guess that’s just how my brain tries to get rid of the painful feeling I had when she said that to me, as if I’m some kind of street w**** and not a proper woman.
I’d also like to try golden showers, or maybe even worse (I once put a finger inside my ex-BF’s a****** and discovered something soft and brown). I don’t know what’s wrong with me. These dirty and perverse thoughts confuse me. I don’t know why I have them when I was raised in a conservative family. (I also fantasize about having a brother and getting intimate with him.)
There it is, I shared some of my deepest s***** fantasies with you all
Maya
