I miss him 🙁 but he doesn’t want me around. He keeps hurting me. It’s obvious I don’t mean much to him at all. It hurts to even think about him. I do well at distracting myself throughout the day but when things are quiet at night it’s not so easy. Even my meds aren’t putting me to sleep like they normally do bc my emotions are too much. It’s odd. I feel whole now but the emptiness has evolved as well. It feels like a wall now instead of a void. I don’t know what to do so I’m just existing and going through the motions. I’m happier though. I don’t feel so suffocated here.