I hate it here , living in my household honestly s**** all my dad does is scream it makes me wanna cry and it brings back flashbacks of when he’d hit me , my mom is honesty selfish I try my best to make her proud but I’m just a fuckup . sometimes I just think about ending it all but I just cant because I want to prove everyone wrong and get a chance to be happy . I feel alone and my parents treat me like I’m a maid , I use to go days without fully eating and sleep during the day thinking they would notice but no all they care about is having the house clean and some times I’m not even motivated to get up for online school I have all fs but the actual school felt like my personal hell everyone there was so full of them self I couldn’t even be myself and no one there knew I was bi only one of my friends in till a girl basically outed me out , i had this sharp feeling in my chest and my throat hurt by wanting to cry that day but it was my fault for telling her the only reason i told her was cause i had a crush on her and i’m pretty sure people looked at me different after that day i think since that happened i started to be sad I’ve tried being happy but i realize nothing really good happens to me . it was my birthday about 2 months ago and that had to be one of the worst birthday I’ve had , it was also the first day i harmed myself nobody had remembered
exept my family but they didn’t even do nothing for my birthday i felt so alone that day .
