To: “I want to die. No one loves me.”
I’m really sorry that you’ve been so neglected by everyone, even professionals, and the fact that your step mother even encourages it is horrible and disgusting. You deserve better than this. From how you make it sound, it seems like everyone blindly neglects you, or even encourages harmful things, which is atrocious. If you have Discord, or any other sort of platform where people can talk, please, do let me know.