this is the first and definitely the only time i will ever mention this anywhere except my head
i cant be near my cousin, i have not willingly been near her in years (i will avoid her at all costs except when i have to sit near her on like a car ride or something)
the reason is because i kinda have feelings for her which i know is really f****** weird but i cant help it she is so pretty and kind and idk i mean i also have/had feelings for other relatives but she is the most prominent, maybe its because we are the same age and i grew up with her as my best friend but i just wish i didnt act like this i want to be friends with her again but everytime i see her i just get those feelings its just i had to finally get this out somewhere i have been feeling and hiding this since i was a young girl
i will never ever act on it or tell anyone about it except here because as you know uhh people dont really like i***** much ya know? like its illegal and taboo and she is like full straight
anyway enjoy my confession
