Met someone and fell crazily for him. Cliche but you fall in love with the most unexpected person at the most unexpected time.

All those cliche quotes.. Happened.. Never knew I can look at someone and smile for no reason… I am crazy.
. All the love songs become about you too..

Our spouses were supposed to return the next day. We met…

I saw your guilt. Your confusion and your fear. I was too selfish and soft hearted

That night in the garden I saw his face appear on WhatsApp.. Than I saw Princess Diana’s quote… Hang on to your love and never let it go… That night when I bath.. In heard rene liu’s hen AI hen AI ni, followed by wan fang’s xin bu liao Qin.. Than A-lin…

I cried from the emotions of the songs and when I imagine that I should end this if I I truly care for him . First time in 10 years… Since my spouse dried my tears. My kids all thought I have never cried. I could not believed I cried. I could not sleep.. Told my family I was sick.

Saw his happy family and kids on what’s app next morning. Guilt of being a potential home wrecker. Even worse as I know his spouse is not well. Went to Catholic confessions online.. for the first time.. They had a confession under 10 commandments.. Under adultery.. Under nonsexual.. Said a prayer first time in almost 20 years.

Decided to change my WhatsApp comment. … Then he text me… Why I changed it.. Haha I told him I missed him.. He laugh..and asked me have I been enlightened.. he told me he attended a concert with his family in the morning ..and he has mutiple engagements with friends and family. I think about his family and friends.

My spouse coincidentally showed segment from the same concert.. About marriage and life.
I was back to my logical self. I decided that I shall help him put a stop to this.

I promised that I will not leave him first and I would not hurt him.
I want to prevent greater hurt to him. I do not want to leave him…

I may not get to see you as often as I like.. I may not get to hug you through the night.. But deep in the bottom of my heart I know there is love for you and I cannot let you go.

I hope that because of these memories we smile a little more, laugh a little harder and cry a little less.

I am happy that this happened. No regrets. I am thankful that you appeared in my life..it was crazy. It was wonderful… Will this flame die out or burn the house down… I don’t know.. The reason why maybe I hold on so so tight is because probably I seriously know something this intense will not happen again in my life..

We both have so many other commitments that it would be selfish for us to behave this way.

I hope to make you smile more. Till you read this. I hope to do something special for you to remember.

Work wise I will always support you so no need to change role . 6 weeks later during the meeting hopefully we will be back to your usual self.

I wanted to be heroic and walk off..and play the role of the b******….. However I am too selfish.. I want you to know how I feel… I am walking off to protect you and our loved ones.

I have decided not to pull you back to me. I will thus help you to make this decision to stop before it is too late.
I will block your number… Once I see or hear from you I cannot control myself.

My adorable and loveable baby.. Snow..
Crying again haha

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