I used to think that self-harm was stupid when I was younger. But I feel like doing it right now.
School sucks. I only have a bunch of fake friends at school. I tend to overwork, cause i cannot stand it when things go against my will, so i always try to do all by myself.
Also, i always try to help people even without considering my ability. Then I frequently dissapoint the people whom I helped. It’s upsetting when people look at you with such disbelief. They don’t trust you anymore, and it makes you feel worthless. It lowers your self-esteem.
And my family always put pressure on me to learn at prestigious universities. My parents compare me with other ‘successful’ kids a lot. They give me this feeling that I will never live up to their expectation.
It’s ok, it’s just me ranting. You can ignore this and keep scrolling down. But I have no one to talk to. That’s why I’m on this confession site to write down all these at midnight.
My mood might go up a bit. At least that’s what I hope.