• 2 weeks ago

What’s on the mind
I felt conflicted about it. I did and do feel bad but you were telling me not to apologize.

I don’t want to go back to being lonely.

I don’t want to get in the way of your marriage.

I do really like you.

I am inexperienced in all this. Everything. I have no experience and I am at an age where everyone else does have experience. It makes it almost impossible to find anyone. No one has been willing to put in the effort for me like that. I don’t want to lose out.

It’s extremely stressful not knowing anything and knowing that being completely alone again could happen easily.

I don’t know what’s best. I don’t want to stop trying. I don’t want to be a problem.

I think I just need a hug.