He’s stronger than I am and very dominant and intimidating and full of himself. It isn’t something we discussed or something we’re roleplaying. He makes sure I know I’m just his bitch to clean his house and make him cum and feed him. He tells me to shut the fuck up and that I better do what I’m told or he’ll knock me out. When his friends come over he grabs me and pretends he’s going to flash them, saying things like “Don’t you want to see these titties/this ass?” He tells them to just tell me what to do and I’ll do it because I “know he’ll whoop my ass” if I don’t and tells them that he could tell me to get on my knees and open my mouth right now and I would. At first I was scared to death and angry and so confused, I thought I should try to get away, but I had to admit to myself that this is exactly what I want and I’m so turned on. He likes to hold my head down with his dick as far as he can go in my throat till I’m dizzy and when we have sex he likes to finish with anal because my pain turns him on. He’ll push me down on my stomach and start pushing it in, he doesn’t use lube or get me prepared at all. It hurts so bad and I try to slow him down and push him away with my hands and crawl away but I can’t. The more I struggle the more turned on he gets, he loves when I cry. At first I thought I was imagining it that he loved my pain and thought he must not know, but when I told him it hurt and begged him to slow down the first time he held me down and pushed as hard and fast as he could. Finally he gets past that muscle and goes in deep and it feels so good for a min, but I’m always torn and bleeding and it burns when he starts pulling out and going back in. I started to be a little afraid of the pain so I asked him if we could do anal with me on my back instead but that was even worse and he loved it. He just put my legs over his shoulders and I was stuck and couldn’t get out from under him. When we have an argument it’s really violent, I know after every argument he’s going to make it hurt that night as bad as he can and nothing will stop him. Everything I’ve learned in life screams to me that this situation is wrong but I’ve never been happier
