I met that 35 years old male online when i was 18. Been speaking to him for months over the phone without seeing his face . I got attached . So did he . But we were too proud to admit anything . Something locked between the two of us . I felt like i was looking at myself in the mirror , in a male version . I felt lust . for the first time of my life . But at the same time i wanted to hurt him bad out of proud . I wanted to make his cold heart beat , once it started beating , i broke it . Of course he didn’t show any remorse , neither did i . we blocked each other after months of passion . I don’t even remenber his face features since i only saw him twice very briefly over video call . What i know now is that i wasn’t a victim of his arrogance and manipulation … I am as guilty as he should be . That opened my eyes , got me out of depression , made me rethink my idendity . I realized he kept the only promise he made out of nowhere . To break me and build me up again . That didn’t happen as planned since i broke him before he could . Smh , im sure hes thinking about me . I want to know but i refuse to get involved ever again .

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