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I am 22 and have been in a relationship for the past 3 years with a bf who is always cruel to me calling me all kind of names & threatening me.. i have nowhere to go at the moment with my parents recently moving away and not enough money to get a place for myself and even though ive talked about leaving he still tries to control me and refuses to let me.. I’ve been nothing bit good to him up until now.. to add to all of this I have an anxiety disorder and I have been on a program for the past 3 months to help with my self confidence etc and to help me get a new job, sooo this is when it gets interesting.. The guy from the program I see once a week has been helping me get through my problems and we have gotten closer and closer every time I meet up with him.. we just have this crazy chemistry.. I don’t know much about him and I don’t even know how old he is bit he has been nothing but kind to me.. I saw him yesterday for another appointment and he asked me how my situation at home was doing and I just burst into tears, I was really embarresed and he asked me if I wanted to get out of there and I agreed.. we went to a beach close by and by the time we got there we talked a bit and shared a few laughes and he cheered me up.. we got to talking about going for a swim even though we were both not prepared only wearing our clothes with nothing else but a blanket with us.. he even moved his next appointment for later in the afternoon.. when we got in the waterthere was a huge s***** chemistry between us.. somehow we convinced eachother that skinny dipping would be a good idea.. I don’t know how things escalated so quickly but next thing i knew we were swimming naked together in the f****** ocean!? it was the best and most free I have felt in sooo long.. I’ve never done anythingnlice this before in my life. And that’s when he KISSED me..and I kissed him back! I seriously felt like i was having some kind of fantasy dream… we kissed for what felt for forever and then we had s**…. I can’t believe I’ve done this. I’m dying just typing this right now. I almost don’t even feel guilty for cheating and to add my bf cheated on me 2 years ago and I was dumb enough to stay with him.. NOW I can’t stop thinking about whay happened. I can’t tell anyone about this and it’s killing me.. am I a terrible person?

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  • It is not right what you have done, but you are not a terrible person because of that. Get out of that sick relationship ASAP.

    Anonymous August 18, 2018 7:26 pm Reply

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