I’m not as innocent(both in action and mentality) as most people think.
Just last year for example
-I expressed my desire to be a s***** deviant to a guy close my age that I became FWB with for a month, then eventually became my bf for a few days…I was never s***** active before this.
-I didn’t tell my parents about him…which partially led him to dumping me(long story why)
-I found out about the girl he left me for(the other reason why he wanted to end things) thru a mutual friend, then eventually I found her social media…I did nothing to confront her though…as the pain I feel is caused by him not her.
-I lied various times to him to cover up any facts about me or my family ‘cause I was embarrassed to admit those facts to him…not proud of it
-I haven’t told my parents that I met up with someone from a social anxiety forum for one day(no s** involved sorry to disappoint!)
-I haven’t told my parents that I almost got raped when I and a guy I knew were drunk when we went to a Halloween carnival.
-I haven’t told my mom that I had a scary overdose of weed edibles that lead me going into ER only to be told I would be fine and going there was a waste of time.(long story short she was away in vacation at the time)
*Keep in mind for half of that year I had moved out ‘cause I’m in my early 20s(but I had to move back, long story) but I still feel guilty about all this ‘cause it’s too much for my mind to process.
I’m not as innocent as people assume for me to be….
