I lied to you when I told you I never loved you. Because I did, and I still do. I love you so f****** much it hurts, but I was drowning, and I would only be drowning you to. So I thought if I hurt you, it would at least be less painful than loving me. I didn’t mean to let you go, and I’m an idiot for just now seeing how big of a mistake that was. How it took you talking to another girl for me to realize how much I need you in my life. Because you are everything I have ever wanted. But I didn’t deserve you then, and I don’t even deserve you now. I’m sorry. I deserve this pain.
