Truth be told though, I believe it, when I figured it out It almost caused me a nervous breakdown, that was the peak of whatever hard times I had in throat (era) for me, I freaked the f*** out, broke down, literally went down to me aunts apartment, she is not much younger than I am, she lives in the same building, I went down there, spilled my guts to her, the only one I ever talked to about anything over that 10 years, she didn’t know what to believe. I asked her what the f*** O should do? Should I check myself in? I’m thinking I need a break. I’m beat from all angles, not just that revelation. she talked me out and down, advised me to first of all find a job, I was literally on a break, over a year, my mother had died over a year earlier, I was spent, look for a job, stop looking at s*** that was not directly in from it of me, and sorry about it, when it is.
I did just that. I went and got a job at an airport ground crew, something different, did that for 4 years, and I ignored everything what’s her name did. I reacted and said nothing about anything. that was early 2012, her advice worked. As a matter of fact, the only reason I said anything here about it the other day, was that recent thing about winning a plagerism lawsuit and calming she did it herself. No. No she didn’t. She didn’t pick up a set of sticks and do that? She couldn’t do that, even if she learned to play drums. I had a hard time doing that. I was looking at the first version of it I did, and man…. I had no goatee or moustache, it was obviously a week or two prior, it’s similar, it’s actually pretty much exact, but it’s like… I’m definitely not putting out the same energy. If there’s “on” this wasn’t it. If I was in the studio, the producer would be going “mmmm… No…. Can we do that another time, this time with more punch and feeling… I was just saying. That recent “I did it myself” thing bugged me.
