to: i fucked up so bad. me: i turned down possible perfection, tall beautiful and smart (phd candidate) that friends said liked me and wanted to set me up. I declined because I just started dating this other girl, scrawny and a bad kisser and not as pretty and wasnt all that into. But I had a warped sense of loyalty. It was decades ago and that self- deprivation still haunts me. fuhhh if I could do one thing over.
