Even the s*** with Meesh and Shep…. I only clued into that recently. I sign up for me first email account ever, to talk to you. I give only you that email address, and then one day, Meesh, who was only an aquaintence, a friend of a friend, one of those guys I have never called, who has never called me, finds me…. along with Shep a friend of Meesh and mine. I was a bit baffled. How did these guys find me here, randomly? Being naive, I kind of brushed it off, they used my name to find the account, and I blocked them shortly after.
I realized lately, and this was a year before we ever did anything alone, they got the address from you, because like I said, you get around and you were getting around before we met. Plenty of Fish? That kind of thing would be right up all your alleys. I have personal never even looked at the site a single time even out of curiosity. That’s how different we are from each other. Shep was a known w**** how whole life, Meesh was a computer nerd before most people even had a personal computer, and so did you. You never told me that? I never would have touched you with a 10 ft pole, I probably would have left that place all together but I believe that now.
The deception was deep and through the whole thing when it came to you and me. We are just 2 different kinds of people, with nothing but that place in common, and we are not looking for the same things or going n the same direction. Its night and day really. What I was to you was one of the places for you to be when you wanted to, for a summer when you happened to be back in town for a few months. I was stupid enough and naive enough to think I was anything. I know exactly what it all was now though. You know it too. I see it for what it was for real.
There is no good intent from you to me, and there never was and youndYou definitely got around. It’s why you can rarely if ever be seen in this town. I used to think it was me, but I know it’s definitely not just me. Big fish, meet little pond. I know all that s***.
