After a lifetime of never being recognized for anything I’ve ever done, I’m sharing everything off laptops from nearly fifteen years ago. I’ve been told I don’t try hard enough. I don’t care. I don’t this. I don’t that. Everyone else around me just gets f****** accolades for anything they do and I’m always in the f****** background.
I really think I’m building up to my own suicide. And that’s absolutely a-okay with me.
So long as I stop f****** hurting since I’ve come to terms with the fact I never had, and will never have any place in this world.
Maybe they’ll see this s*** and think, wow, this person really did try, why did I blow them off before.
F*** everyone.
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Stop gaslighting fake poser
Been there. Feeling invisible. Like no one actually cares about you. That was my childhood. And it did lead to me attempting suicide, twice. But I promise there is a light at the end of your dark tunnel. You have to stop thinking about other people and think about yourself. You have to replace outside validation with self validation. And I promise you’ll see things in a better light. I’m not saying that by doing this things won’t annoy your, or that feeling ignored won’t hurt, but you’ll feel better about yourself. You have to become selfish in a sense and just do you. Fuck everyone else. That mentality saved my life, maybe it’ll help you as well.
Me too.
Not everyone is smart, not everyone wants to be.
Decide how you want to live your life and do that and be like that.
If people don’t conform to how you want to be and the life you want to lead, then they were not friends after all.
You only have one life and its not very long.
Pleasure yourself, always put yourself first and live your life as fully as you want to and fuck everybody else.
You will meet people who understand and care about the lifestyle you have chosen for yourself and maybe they feel the same way about things, like you do.