i think im in love with a person that i have never met. And I’m not sure if that’s even possible.
i will just go about my day and several times a day, he just pops up in my head. i think about what he’s doing, if he’s sleeping or eating, if he’s happy or sad. And the idea of him being sad for any reason, makes my heart hurt.
I even check his social media several times a day. For literally anything.
but then i always realize that he doesn’t know that I even exist and could care less about what i say or do. He’s happy in with his life, while I’m miserable in mine.
I want to move to the city he lives in. I want to go see him… (I live in another country)
But I’m scared that this is how someone becomes a stalker.
What if I’m not in love? What if I just have an intense crush or this is just the start of an obsession? How do I even tell the difference?
And even if I do meet him in real life, what would I say..
“Hi you don’t know me, but I think I’m in love with you”? THAT’S INSANE.
Most likely he wouldn’t even spare me a second thought. I’m very average, in more ways that one and he’s pretty much amazing, gorgeous and talented.
There’s also a chance that he could have a secret girlfriend, that is also really gorgeous…
I know I’m pathetic. Don’t even bother pointing that out..
I guess I’m just scared that my feelings for this man who I don’t know and never met, are this intense and are not really fading away. A part of me.. The hopeless romantic in me.. Says that maybe this can be a sign or something. The realist in me says that it’s not and that I’m just lonely.
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IT doesn’t matter if it’s a crush, love or obsession. IT’s all the same amount of pointless. That doesn’t mean you’ll get over it, though.
I understand you completely, I met him a long time ago and I honestly thought I was crazy. Never had experienced love at first sight. Until him. First step: talk to him, a “Hello” may be the start of something beautiful. Anxiety is terrible and it can make you doubt wheter you will find the courage, but… trust me on this: is better to do it than to stay with an eternal “what if.” I met the love of my life by chance and never thought I could love someone this much, he is everything I ever wanted, without even knowing it. I am doing everything I can to be at his side. Because is worth it, because I deserve to be happy, and so do you.
thank you. I really needed to hear that.