I feel like I’m not good enough for her, but I want to improve as a person to be better for her. But I feel like I need to do it quickly because any day could be the day im not given the chance to be better anymore. I feel like my improvement that would be acceptable to take a year needs to take a week. Or she might realize how not worth it I am and take away my chance to show her I’m trying to be better. I’m not a terrible person but I have insecurities I’m trying to over come. They are hard to deal with but I dont want to put them on her. So I pretend they dont exist while I work on them in secret. I dont want her to see the bad things I have, I’m working on it.
