I love my boyfriend but I do not. I love his personality and his looks but I do not love who he truly is. I know he’s a closet alcoholic, I know he spends a ton of money on webcam girls, I know he dedicates himself to working 50-70 hours to work every week, and I know that he doesn’t put enough effort to our relationship. He doesn’t make me feel s***, he doesn’t put effort into a spontaneous trip, he doesn’t put effort into s**, he doesn’t put effort into surprising me. I end up staying with him because it’s better than being with my parents and I plan to leave him once I graduate college or find someone or something better. He’s also emotionally abusive and I always find it hard to communicate with him regarding his flaws. If he were to shape his flaws I know we would work out but instead he curses, calls me names, and stonewalls me. If anyone is out there and has a better situation with their family than their boyfriend, leave them, you’ll do better.
