How do I man-up, go to the meeting tomorrow, ignore my crush there and shred this feeling of guilt? I can’t keep living with the what-ifs and I’ve got no excuse to double-up and be a p****. She rejected me because I’m not her type, maybe it is because I’m a little insecure about my appearance and personality, I’ve got to be blunt with myself here. The thing is, I can use this to move forward and find someone else, or I can moan about not being good enough for the rest of my life. She might not even be at this meeting, it could all just be in my head. I need to shun all embarrassment and embrace the fact that we’ll never be together. She doesn’t hate me as a person, I don’t have any social proof for myself for her to decide that anyway. Rejection doesn’t mean that I’m hated and it’s fucked that I have to take it that way. No one’s hurt me, I’m only doing that to myself.

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