I am all fucked up. 44 years and I still question why God places me here. I have been with the same woman 25 years, have a great daughter and grandson out of it. I don’t make much money, but together, me and the wife live comfortably. Not as well off as her family though. I have a house, camper, boat, etc. I still feel like I am not really happy. I love my wife more than anything in the world, so why am I in love with the woman next door? I am friends with her husband but have not talked to him much lately. I am in love with his wife but nobody else knows it. If I told her, they both would probably tell my wife and I would be screwed. I thought the feelings would pass, but it has been 5 years and I love her more and more.
I work too much but when I am off work, I don’t wanna do nothing but sit around or maybe visit with my grandson. I am constantly looking at other women half my age but I won’t cheat on my wife. Not unless it was with the woman next door and I doubt that would ever happen. Maybe when pigs fly. I feel like there’s something missing or something I forgot to do. I’m not sure what it is but I don’t feel right. Maybe it’s a midlife crisis. Me and the wife still do things together. We have s** about once a week, even if I am not as excited as she is about it. Over the weekend, we did it, and I fucked her 6 ways to Sunday and got her off, but I could not c** for nothing. The erection was there, we did several positions, but I just could not c** and I don’t know why. Is it my age? I am just not happy but I have no reason to complain. WTF?

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