This is a horrible truth, pain and a guilt. I’m relatively typical middle aged wife with kids. I’ve been having an affair with a coworker. Nothing serious, just an occasional get together after work in one of our cars.
I guess I needed the attention since things at home are boring and routine, plus I haven’t turned a head in years. I know that is no excuse. I love my husband and don’t want to leave him. I just needed a little diversion.
A few days ago I met my coworker after work and there was this other guy I didn’t know and wasn’t expecting with him. My coworker and I got in the back seat. I was feeling uncomfortable but I didn’t stop it. Then the other guy joined us. It wasn’t something I wanted at all. I don’t know why I didn’t stop them. I know it is hypocritical but I feel violated and taken advantage of. I was like a deer in the headlights and kind of froze and things happened that I really regret.
I’ll never see my coworker again like that. I guess I learned a very hard lesson and I’ll have to live with this for the rest of my life.