I’ve fallen in love with one of my best friends who knows literally everything about me. The situation is so f****** complicated though. When mike (FAKE NAME) and I met, he was dating one of my friends, who i also consider a great friend, i’ll call her Jannis (FAKE NAME.) Jannis and Mike broke up after 3 months, but Mike and I kept talking since we were basically therapy for each other. He knows about my cutting addiction, depression and anxiety, and I know about the problems in his family, and his really deep fears. So basically about 4 or 5 months after they broke up, the Mike guy had dated a bunch of different people, since he hates being alone. Then he didn’t date anyone for a while, and he told me he loved me. I didn’t know what I felt for him at that point, so I kindly friend zoned him which he was fine ( I think, probably not but who knows) with. About a month after that, I confirmed that I had fallen in love with him. Jannis doesn’t know that we still talk as much as we used to, she knows we talk but she doesn’t know that it actually increased to hours every day. All I know about there break up was that it was messy and Jannis hates Mike now.
I feel like if I tell Jannis I like Mike, she will hate me and do that thing where they warn you not to and s*** when he is honestly the most kind hearted person ever, so much so he got me to stop cutting. I also have no clue if Mike still even likes me, but he has only dated one person since (they broke up) , unlike when Mike and Jannis broke up when he went on so many dates with different people. I’m terrified that things will get weird between us, and if he did actually still like me, since were so young (under 18, won’t say age) we would break up and we wouldn’t even have the friendship. I could lose 2 of the closest people I care about. Also I go to an all girls school so word gets around fast.
PLEASE SOMEONE GIVE ME ADVICE!!
