I lost my virginity at 18, at a party. I hate to remember it because it’s been so long, but i was naive, and hadn’t built my personality enought at the time to be assertive, was a kid, and the guy asked me if i wanted to go to a private place, i tought it was just to make out in my head not for s** and he was older at my school so it was like ‘wow’, then he manipulated me by being sweet kissing me and f********, and took his clothes off and had s**, while i was just letting everything go.
i was naive as f*** now remembering, and couldn’t see that he wanted s**, in my head it was just making out with the older guy romantized, and he manipulated me, now that i look back much older i just see who dumb i was and who disgusting the guy was, and it’s not hard to get manipulated when you’re a 18 virgin teen. Then everybody knew what happened at the party tought i was a w****, when in reality really he was really the bad one who manipulated me and i was a virgin lol, he didn’t know i was a virgin at the time. Just needed to let it go after all these years, i feel so bad and dirty everytime i remenber this and what people tought of me. Learn and let go i guess, i’ve blocked him from all social media, he still tries to contact me after years, disgusting.
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It’s ok. Just move on and find a level of sexuality that is comfortable to you
thank you man
Why are you making it a big deal ??!! This is called an EXPERIENCE,you‘ve learned something in your life, get over it and stop thinking about the past
if its no big deal why are you offended
yeah its hard. I regret how my first time went as well, I was naive and was in the back of a car with a guy and just let it happen in the moment without a condom even though I wasn’t on birth control and he finished inside me.
At least you weren’t at a party and everybody knew what happened, only you know. i also was drunk. Anyways it was 4 years ago and i learned my lesson
yes true that must have been really bad. I’m glad no one else knew but I was really worried after that I might be pregnant.