There is something very wrong with me. I don’t like normal things like other people. I like strange things but not just strange, it has to be bizarrely strange. When I was 18 I lost my virginity to a guy that was more than 30 years older than me and married. I only get aroused when I feel that I’m being used s*******. The older they are the better. The more they can’t commit to me the better. The more they treat me like a s** object the better. I fantasize about big fat old ugly men just using me for my body however they please. I need a lot of lube with my boyfriend and I have to fantasize about other men just to get going with him.
By the way, its not easy to find guys like that either. Most men are too respectful, think I’m too young for them or don’t realize that I’m flirting with them.
I thought I would grow out of it but it just keeps getting more intense. I’m in my mid 20s now and I’ve been dating my boyfriend for a while and I think he’s about to pop the question. That’s why I’m writing this. I’m going to say yes to him, but I know I’ll slip one day and cheat.
I wish I could find a fat old guy as a secret lover.
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Probably because you were raped by an older man when you were a kid. Might want to talk with a professional.
Were you sexually abused as a minor? When I started college and I was pledging to a sorority one of the sisters sexually abused me and it didn’t stop after the hazing. It continue for so long that I began to look forward to the “sessions” with her. She changed me forever and I’m not the person I was. I’m damaged now and afraid I’ll never be a good person in a relationship. I don’t feel “normal”. I crave “bizarrely strange” sexual things myself now. I never considered myself to be a lesbian but I need to be dominated by an older woman to get turned on now.
This is fake. Written by an old fat guy.
you sound like my sort of sex object. It’s too bad we don’t live next door.
I’m just kidding but I like to joke. You’d fit right in with the other tools in my shed.