Okay, here it goes. I’m a middle aged house wife and mother of two. I’m here to mentally open up about something I’ve been doing online for a while now. Its funny that I open myself up visually to strangers online but writing about it is psychologically different. I do cam shows during the day while my husband is at work. I have quite a little following and the money is okay but I don’t do it for that. I’m not here to be judged, nor do I need your advice. I’m just here to expose myself in writing which is a different kind of thrill for me.
So, here is my story. I started a little more than two years ago. The words that comes to mind when I first started to do it is nervousness, very nervous but also very exciting and thrilling. There is something about being admired and desired by men that really boosted my ego. I grew less nervous the more I did it. In the beginning I was doing simple stuff that was easy to do like stripping slowly, dancing and playing with myself. But the big tips started with the stuff that I used to consider k**** like spanking and pinching myself. To be honest I was apprehensive at first when these suggestions started coming in since I had never done anything like that before but now I use homemade devices like hanger clips and brushes. Recently I started exploring doing things outside of the house like in a park, store, parking lot or mall.
I might get bored of it one day but these guys keep coming up with original stuff that keeps it fresh and exciting.
I wrote this as a catharsis for myself but I can’t help but wonder why anyone here would care about this or they would finding as exciting to read as I did to put into words.

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