I have been holding this secret about me for too long and I wanted to confess it some way or another to other people. When I was 7 my uncle molested me, he was 14 at the time. By molested, we did s***** things. I hate it because it has messed up my life because i honestly enjoyed it and i feel like i have dirty thoughts because of it. It started during the middle of the night. We had just finished watching a movie, i don’t remember what but he was babysitting me. I usually would sleep with my aunt in her room but we were having fun that we chose to sleep in the living room. In the middle of the night he woke me up and told me that he wanted me to go to the restroom with him cause he was scared. I told him to just turn on the lights but he didn’t want to wake anyone up so i went with him. I thought it was a little inappropriate since im a girl and hes a boy but i admired him a lot and i had sort of a crush on him. I got in trouble earlier that year because i said i wanted to marry him. Anyway, as soon as we got into thw restroom, he pulled my pj’s and underwear down really fast and started eating me out. It felt sort of good because of the sensation and because it was him doing it. I was giggling because of the excitement. He stopped and looked up and asked if he wanted me to stop. I knew it was wrong but at the same time i honestly didn’t want him to stop so i just shrugged and said “i don’t know.” He continued for a few seconds then he stopped because he heard someone come downstairs. He told me to be quiet. It was my grandma and she asked what he was doing and where i was at. And he said that i was too scared to use the restroom so he came in. She went with it and told us not to sleep to late. He waited a little bit then asked me if i wanted him to keep going and assured me that we didn’t have to do it if i didn’t want to. I just shrugged. He then asked if it felt good. And i said yes. He told me he would keep going if i did the same thing to him. I told him i didn’t know how so he showed demonstrated how verbally and physically. Like air sucking a d***. He told me if we did this then we cant say anything or we would get in trouble. He got naked, sat on the toilet, and I have him oral s**. I didn’t like it because he had a big p**** for someone small like me. And he tasted nasty but i honestly wanted him to do it back to me. I didn’t know I had swallowed his sperm until i got a nasty after taste the next day. I thought it was just from giving him oral s** but then he explained to me what it was and how it gets women pregnant. After that, we would have a*** s**. He told me it would be too painful through my v***** but a*** really hurt. Eventually i got used to it. Sometimes i would try to get myself out of a*** by offering oral s**. After a year, i stopped because i was starting to not like it. I told him i didn’t want to do it anymore cause it was wrong and it didn’t even feel good. Things were going until the next year when he let me play his gameboy and had me sit on his lap. He put his hand down my pants and caressed my b***. He asked for one more time and said he would give me his gameboy. Touching my b*** was nothing i thought. Then he moved his hand to my crotch and started f******** me. It felt too good for me to tell him to stop. He pull my pants down. I thought he did that to make it easier but he did to give me a***. I was surprised but he kept f******** me so i didn’t tell him to stop. That was my first time experiencing an o*****. He never really pleasured me before that. I wanted to feel it again so i would ask him to do it. I had to let him do a*** or give him oral. He mostly wanted a***. Then he ended up not wanting to do it anymore. He just completely closed himself off. I hated it because i liked the pleasure. So i tried to teach myself to m*********. Didn’t feel the same w/o another person so i would always try to seduce boys my age but cousins and friends from the apartment complex. I feel so messed up about it.

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