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I am 19 and I have a borderline obsessive crush on my 38 year old boss. I don’t know why. We are pretty good friends by now but only because I settle for being close to him as a good friend. I care about his happiness and passions and all the things he loves. He’s really cute and hes funny and he always makes me feel appreciated by the department and sometimes by him specifically. He touches me a lot, not inappropriately but playfully and gently. It feels like euphoria whenever he touches me (such as when he put his head on my shoulder, or offered to crack my back, or holds my arm when he talks to me.) I wish I didnt feel the way I do. I wish i didnt have dreams and jealousy for other pretty girls he talks to. I have to be close to him though. Not even really by choice, because i am applying for one of the only 2 positions available higher up in our department. Its very difficult to be friendly with him because my body says yes and my brain says no but his actions tell me yes too. I dont know what to do here, i feel like im trapped because i need him to trust me and at least like me in order to get this position. He does like me, he shares personal things with me and nobody else in our department. And i love that he does. But I know I have to ignore it and continue on without reciprocating that i also want to share my personal life with him…because if I do share, i feel so extremely tempted to tell him i have feelings for him and that would ruin everything Im working for right now.
I know I have to stay away from him and get away from him for good.
I guess im just asking “what do I do now”

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  • He sounds like he really likes you … especially if he’s touching you.

    Anonymous August 20, 2018 3:41 am Reply

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