Don't you ever get sick of being the victim? I do, I am sick of being the victim all my life. That's why this year I have put it upon myself to be the

15 years

339 Views

Don’t you ever get sick of being the victim?
I do, I am sick of being the victim all my life. That’s why this year I have put it upon myself to be the aggressor about 10% of the time.
Yeah, am still a victim most of the time, but it gives life a whole different taste, when you are victim only most of the time and not all of it.
I was given notice that coming week will be my last at work. My retaliation for that is that am going to delete all the contracts I have ever done for the company, some of which the company hasn’t received the payments yet.
They think I’m not a valuable person in the organization, then they can do just fine without the money I made for them.
My ex once again gave me the non-verbal dump (one you can’t even get an explanation for because he’s not even talking to you, not even telling you its over).
I told him I will hack his email to check if he ever really applied for jobs for me like he promised, (that was the 1st time he calls me since Sunday!). I told him I wasn’t prepared to speak to him before he grows some balls. I also told him I cheated on him with 3 guys, and gave the numbers of 3 guys that I hate but wont leave me the f*** alone (I never really did it, these are guys I don’t even talk to). I told him they used to make fun of him, while they fucked me, and I found it entertaining.
I have been abusive to other guys before when its all over, and I feel like I got played, but every single time I did it, I had completely lost hope and was repelled by the guy.
I still love this one, I don’t know if I did the right thing.
I don’t think he believes me, because I have lied about this before.
Still; I hate this, this was supposed to make me feel good (it has before) instead here I am feeling like s***.

New Confession

I met my friend in August of 2022. We met over a fandom for a YouTuber we both liked, we’d talk, shade headcanons, write, and the like. She was wonderful. She was perfect, so sweet and kind, loving, caring, passionate. Of course I fell in love with her.

Something in my mind at some point, I don’t know where, just seemed to break. I saw her as this absolutely perfect, flawless angel. Someone above me, someone above feeling the ways I do, someone so perfect she couldn’t possibly be upset by me. So I put more and more on my angel. She can’t feel bad, she’s perfect. It’s wrong, but that’s how my mind was working. I still see her as someone so beautiful and amazing.

I professed my love to her. She didn’t want it. But I pushed her on, continually telling her I loved her, over and over again professing my feelings and pretty much BEGGING for her to love me back. She didn’t want it yet I pressed on, spamming her with love declarations at LEAST weekly, hoping that maybe someday she’d change her mind.

But that’s not even the end of it. No, she was either perfect or evil to me. And whatever set me to treating her like my perfect savior angel, it all came crashing back down in reverse. All over YouTube drama. The moment she did something I didn’t perceive as perfect, I snapped. That YouTube channel we both like had been called out for being an abuser and I said it was unacceptable to keep watching and giving exposure to him, she said I should just let people enjoy things. I made an angry post about how everyone who liked that channel was enabling his abuse, got banned from the community, and I was desperate to come back. They were my only friends.

I made an alt account to pretty much stalk my angel, I was jealous and controlling and paranoid over her finding someone better than me and leaving me now that she was upset at me. I joined back in the servers I wasn’t allowed in. I listened in to a call she was in. At the same time, I was messaging her on my main account, pretty much yelling at her about how she’s funding and platforming an abuser. On my alt, I would act all sweet, I knew my relationship with her was already ruined so I thought if I became someone else, someone better, someone ideal, she’d love me.

This was the end for us. She found me out and completely cut me off, then later I was sent a document detailing everything I’ve done and that I abused her, broke her mentally, and made it so she can’t trust anyone anymore.

Reddit . Com / u / Raincandy-Angel

Related Confessions

Russia is a terrorist state bent on destroying civilisation as revenge for losing the cold war. We can’t continue to f*** around with this like nothing’s happening.