I feel so dreadful just being myself around other people since I came home from West Virginia (I was there July 4th to December 24th of 2019)
While I was there, I cut myself a ton, just because I liked watching myself bleed.
Now, I’ve become mute. I havent used my voice in 3 weeks, and since I have such terrible memory, thats a long, long time for me…
I live in shame now, everything I do or say just makes me uncomfortable. But I just cant help it… it won’t stop.
I think I might start cutting again, maybe it will make me feel better.
I’m not sure… I may update again… We’ll see…
