I turned forty last week. I have been the mistress/lover, second family wife to this sixty one year old man for fifteen years. I have my three children with him. I admit that I have always had daddy issues and he filled that void in my life. Now that I’m older I feel funny being so daddy oriented, but that’s how I behave with him.
I sit and ask myself how can I be both his ‘little girl’ and sleep with him and have and raise his kids. Have I called him “Daddy”? Many times. His term of endearment for me is “Baby”. My oldest daughter says I’m his baby, not her. In our house there are four “girls”, me and my three daughters. He is not just “the girls'” Daddy, he is mine too. I never had a father or daddy growing up, he is my “Daddy”.