So, I maybe have a boyfriend in jail. He’s extremely handsome and I love him to bits. We’ve seen eachother through photos sent in the mail. And he’s so hot. I seriously cant imagine someone more perfect than him. But I’m worried when we meet in 20 or 30 something years he might not like me. Falling in love through letters is one thing but being in love in person is another. And I know for me that I’ll love him no matter what, but I’m worried he’ll get tired of me now that his net has widened. I had a dream that we were laying in bed together, both 40 year olds, and there’s this awkward silence between us. He’s not facing me, acting like he’s sleeping, but I know he’s not. And I’m scared he’s laying there trying to find the right words to say he doesn’t love me. I dont know if I could handle that. I’d probably be broken beyond repair.
Anyway, I’ll be moving to the state he’s locked up in for two reasons. College and to see him. And honestly, seeing him in person is gonna be crazy. I’ll probably pee myself a little. I’m joking, but I really would be shaking in my boots. I want to hug him. Smell his hair, feel his face, hold hands. And maybe we could do that one day. But I really want that now.
I’m not sure where I’m going with this. But just saying this and putting it out there makes me feel better.

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