I don’t have anybody close to me. I think it’s starting to bother me. Knowing that I don’t belong. Knowing that I am alone. I always have been, and I probably always will be. If I try to change that, I end up being left again at some point. And I understand. . . but I think it’s starting to get to me. It looks like everyone has a friend. So why not me. I try, I do. I try hard, I try less, I fake it, or come on too strong. I just.. don’t work socially. But I am me. There is no changing that. I just want to connect with someone, be level with someone, but I just can’t find that click. It’s not even love that i’m chasing, just a friend. Knowing myself, I feel like I have to ask, is that too much to ask for. . . Maybe not everyone can walk in the light. . . I may have to retire my sheep’s clothing soon.
