I am waisting my childhood over the fact that im ugly and i hate it. Im only 14 but i havent gone to in person school since maybe 2020 when covid came. I lock myself up in my room and i dont come out untill i feel “perfect”. I hate it so much and its been getting worse and worse and worse every single day ive had from teachers, friends, family, family friends, crushes, and more tell me im ugly or give me a back handed compliment. I even got one 2 weeks ago when i got enough confidence to see my friend her mom went “you look like a grandma with those glasses”. Nobody will convice me that im pretty with their fake a**, positivity like “but ur so gorgeous d** say that”. I cant leave untill im perfect the only time i leave is when I’m FORCED by my mom. Im 14 but i feel like this will go on forever. I look on this one girls page everyday and compare myself to her videos and pictures id do anything to look like her shes the definition of perfect shes so lucky.
