• 2 weeks ago

I want to die so badly. Like so viscerally that sometimes it hurts. I’ve laid there and detailed out the plans and steps and only the thought of how my parents would react has stopped me. I’m so sick and tired of being alive. I feel like I can’t do anything right and that everyone hates me and I’m just genuinely not a person people would want to be around. I wish I could just lay down in bed one day and never wake up, fade from everyone’s memory like an old toy on a shelf so that I stop disappointing and hurting everyone.