I am so absolutely discussed with myself. I don’t like anything about me. Nor my body, not my personality, not my face. I hate it all. I hate looking into the mirror and seeing me. It pains me everyday to be surrounded by beutiful family members and friends and them living a happy life. People say looks aren’t everything and doesn’t determine happiness but that just isnt true. People don’t understand that when your ugly, you will never find love. I know that I will be alone. Forever. I don’t want to take showers, i don’t want to get dressed, because I don’t want to see me. I want to cut off all my fat and throw it out, I want to bend my bones to a new shape. I want my double chin gone, I want my protruding stomach and saggy chest to disappear. I want my nose to be cute, I want my eyes to be bright and not sullen, I want my hairline to be forward, I want my fingers to stop being fat, I want my feet to not be big. I want my chin to be smoother. I want to be funny and make people laugh, I want someone to want to hangout with me, I want to be less worried, I want to have more empathy. I wish I didn’t have acne and my ears weren’t the wrong size, I wish my eyebrows were more full and pretty. I wish that I wasn’t me.
