as far back as I can remember my dad treated me like shit. and my mother too. he made it very clear that he had no affection to give us. if there was a

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as far back as I can remember my dad treated me like s***. and my mother too. he made it very clear that he had no affection to give us. if there was a way to put me down he found it. i wasnt even 10 years old. my mom was always there for me and intervened when things got too involved with my dad. i remember waking up one morning a year later and she wasn’t home and my dad said she left. it took me a few days to realize that she wasn’t coming back. it crushed me. I wanted to know why she left, but more importantly how she could leave me with such a pig. the next few years my life slowly decayed. I started smoking weed and got drunk frequently. one night at a party I met this guy, a few years older than me. while I was throwing up on the staircase he was at my aid while everyone else was having a good time. we started dating for a few months. I couldn’t stand living with my dad anymore so I estatic when this guy asked me to move in so I dropped out of high school and moved in. I was just 17 but what did i know? he was my knight in shining armor every teenage girl dreams of. our relationship got quite intimate for about a year but it all started slipping away. I was desperate to keep him. so desperate I tried the cocaine like he said i should that night. it marked the beginning of my hell. today i turn 20 and I can’t help but to look back on my life. nothing. I’m addicted to coke now and so is my bf. he dictates my life and any intimacy we had is now gone for the most part. I think I still love him deep deep down but thats not why I havnt left him yet, and I should. I know I should. but he supplies my addiction. he knows I’m too desperate to leave and he takes andvantage of it. I am miserable. I don’t even see the point of getting clean. all I see is me with no place to go, no one to talk to, and still miserable. living this life, at least I can pretend I’m happy. this is the first time I told anybody the whole story. only now that i see it written out do I realize how much I actually have to confess

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didnt i tell you that if you kept f u c k i n g with me i would ruin your g o d d a m n life? you wanted to keep f u c k i n g threatening me and my family, you even sent my n u d e s out to my family and called everyone of us trash becaue i refused to go gay for you. you are nothing you pathetic f u c k. you will never know remorse or regret because you’re a sociopathic r a p i s t f u c k and i told the officer that if you pulled up on me again before they got to you with that warrant i would take your f u c k i n g life. the officer told me to do what i had to, to protect myself even if i had to curb s t o m p a m o t h e r f u c k e r. you slashed my tires, f u c k e d wiring up trying to cut my brakes and told me that if i went gay for you then you would leave me alone and stop f u c k i n g my life up. MY BOYY. You cost me a few hundred, but i make more in a day than you do in two weeks. you only set me back 20 minutes installing new tires and wires. your dumb a s s didn’t even cut the brakes, you cut my f u c k i n g wiring that cost like 5 dollars… you really are the worst f u c k i n g sociopathic stalker. you left way too many clues in your words letting us know who you were, especially when you pinged your location and sent it to me to show off where you were. you really just f u c k e d with the wrong one. also, when speaking to the officers they said there were a few others that had came to them with the same stories but they had no proof or evidence of it being you, however, i had dealt with you for so long and kept off your radar that i guess you slipped up and just forgot that i was the wrong mother f u c k e r to f u c k with. goodbye mccormick.

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