• 2 weeks ago

I’m so conflicted in my eating disorder. I think I have anorexia but the reality Is that I manage to get through the day by restricting heavily and then I have somewhat of a binge at the end of the day. Today I had 1800 calories, which is the most I’ve had in a while and I feel absolutely horrible about myself. Daily, I would say I average 1200 with the binge included. I’m very conflicted and upset. Right now I took a huge shot of Tabasco hot sauce in hopes of throwing up. It didn’t work. Idk why, I also don’t have a gag reflex whatsoever. Anyways, might have some monk fruit sweetener because sugar alcohols can act as a laxative. I fucking hate myself because I was so good at restricting at first and now I’m a fucking mess

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