I am a person who strongly gets attached to his friends, i mean they become part of me. i have a best friend who is weird sometimes, the way he considers me a normal friend and where sometimes doesn’t call if i don’t. I respect him , like him, care about him, but he just doesn’t appreciate what i do for him. we been friends for almost 10 years now, and still he acts weird… i mean the thing is that i don’t get what i offer people. We live in a sick world. This is what makes me mad, that i have no true friend, that likes me for who i am, respects me for what i do, or is happy for i do. The way i act in sensitive situations is waaaaay different than how he does. When i get him a gift, i really do everything to make him happy.

I hate the fact to wait for him to call me to do something. I want him to follow me. I sometimes hate him! I feel bad when 2 days pass and i dont do something with him ( Movies, basketball, network games, soccer etc… ) He is the type that whenever he sees someone or meets someone that person becomes his close friend, what does that make me feel? Like s***! I dont want to talk about myself, but its just that i am sooo different than all his friends.

I also sometimes say that i should have a new best friend, i should make new friends, although i am unable and dunno why…

what should i do? I dont want to loose him, but i want him to see how special he is to me! i am acting like a bestfriend to him and this DOESNT sound GAY!