I participated in the Doodle For Google contest this year and lost by a long shot. When I first found out, I didn’t really care. Like. At all. But that was months ago. And now I feel really said about it. When I was telling my friends, one of them said that they felt super bad for me. I didn’t understand why they did. Looking back on it now, they were just pitying me. Like I’m an artist who can never make it on her own and needs everyone’s approval to make it. But I don’t. Not at all. And it hurts me that they thought of me like that. It makes me feel so looked down upon. It hurts pretty bad. Not to mention that this “friend” was the same “friend” that broke up with me to be with someone who thought of herself as my best friend. It’s all so oof. And I just don’t know how to express this pain. I don’t have a good creative outlet that I can think of to vent so, I’m here. Just here.
